I woke up today in a better mood than I have been in the last week or so. If you're reading this, and you read them on a regular basis, I'm sure you've noticed I've been down recently. It's gone on a lot longer than I care to admit, but whining about it doesn't change it. When you're depressed, you gotta get up and do something about it, not sit around waiting for things to change, waiting for someone to save you. You can only save yourself. YOU are the only person you can count on with 100% surety. See this as a cynical view point if you will, but it's just how the world works.
Life isn't fair. The sooner you accept this, the happier you'll be. If life was fair, there would be no reasons to lie. People wouldn't be hurt. All relationships would end more like Grease, with everyone singing joyfully and the couple ending up together (in a flying car, no less), instead of like Titanic. Families would be like the Cleavers. Everyone would have a turn to be prom queen.
But obviously this is not so... you have to have balance. If nothing bad ever happens to you, how can you appreciate the good moments? If you've never been sad, how do you know you're happy? I make this point over and over again, but I'll never be able to say it enough. Just because you're depressed for a few days, a week, a month, doesn't mean you have to be that way always. Take the time you need to sort through your bullshit, then move the fuck on. No faerie godmother is going to come along and twinkle her faerie dust over your head and give your life a happy ending. all those faerie tales are full of shit Believe me, I wish this were true. But you're more likely to be eaten alive by a horde of frenzied zombies than for this to happen. (see how I got my zombie reference in there?)
Get some stubbornness in you!
I know I've said how it's been my downfall in so many situations, but I feel that using it in a positive way is what gets me through shit. I'm too stubborn to give up my almost 9 months of being clean. I'm too stubborn to accept anything lower than a B in school. I'm too stubborn to let a rude customer to get to me (most of the time... stupid white trash monkey), so I keep busting my ass at work. I'm too stubborn to let go of the love I have because he told me to prove it...so I am. HAH. I'm too stubborn to let the state get me down. You want to run my life? You want to try and fuck me over? I won't make it easy on you, I'll keep kicking ass at life and shoving how awesome I am in your face. Don't fuck with a redheaded Hampton on a mission. Once my mind is truly made up, that's just how it is. Period.
Anyway. Take from this what you will. I more wanted to affirm to myself that I was feeling better.
courtesy;maroon.5
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