the less i seek my source for some definitive the closer i am to fine.

SMILE BITCHES.

i went to the doctor, i went to the mountains

i looked to the children, i drank from the fountains

there's more than one answer to these questions -pointing me in a crooked line

the less i seek my source for some definitive, closer i am to fine.

I've been going all OCD lately and re-reading all of my entries the last week or so. For some reason it always helps me when I'm feeling down or lame, or whatever. Seeing how happy or sad I've been in the past tends to give me perspective on my current circumstances. And man. I don't know what the fuck has been going on... but jeebus cornflakes Aly, shut the fuck up about it already. We all know you have terrible relationship juju. We all know the man is holding you down. Seriously.

seriously.

So here we go...

Reality Check Time!

Realistically, who doesn't get lonely? And honestly, I'm a terrible girlfriend anyway... I'm too independent.  And if I make the mistake of actually falling in love with you (which, doesn't actually happen that often; trust no one) then lord help you. That's like signing one of those contracts they have in the cartoons that can't be destroyed and always come back to bite you in the ass at the worst possible moment. You know what I'm talking about, they appear at some vital moment and hover in the air, three times their original size, with your signature glowing at the bottom. (kinda like this, but without the epic soundtrack.)

anyway.

I've began viewing the beginning of this summer as the veritable Bermuda triangle of relationships. And once you put things into perspective, they're never as bad as they seemed before.

So use the ole think box, don't let the bullshit get you down. The world will keep spinning even if you're too busy or sad or fucked up to notice. We live on borrowed time folks, might as well make every day worth living, right? If they really love you, you'll know it. carpe diem. bitches.

This makes me want to go on a philosophical/religious rant... but I think I will perhaps save that for a night when I haven't been drinking. And when I'm not so consumed with my sudden overwhelming desire to watch The Little Mermaid.

courtesy; indigo.girls