I started looking up old songs from when I was in high school and the few years after... I thought it would make me feel all nostalgic and awesome... and y'know, like awww... aren't I glad I'm older and wiser now.
I just feel old.. How much have I moved on or up since 10 years ago when most of the songs came out? Sure, I've most definitely got more life experience. I insist on learning everything the hard way.
Life lesson: Learning things the hard way SUCKS. If someone gives you advice and they've been through it... you should probably listen. That whole "that will never happen to me" attitude is stupid. You keep doing the same idiotic, potentially dangerous, illegal thing, long enough, you will get caught. You will get hurt. This is not an IF scenario. It's just a matter of WHEN. Law of probabilities. It might take longer than you expect, but it will happen. So just save yourself the heartache and don't be so fucking stubborn.
I've been told by more people than I can count of the extremeness of my stubbornness... It was most definitely my downfall in most regards.
I would say a good 75% of the people I went to high school with have either; been married and/or divorced, have children, have finished their college and have started their careers. Me? What do I do? Oh, that's right. I work at Staples making minimum wage. And I live with my dad. Oh and lest we forget, the state of IL owns my ass for the next two years. I have no prospects of any kind of realistic relationship at all anywhere in the near future. I seem to have a tendency to scare away love interests or sabotage myself by running as fast as I can in the opposite direction...
NEH
WRONG.
I just feel old.. How much have I moved on or up since 10 years ago when most of the songs came out? Sure, I've most definitely got more life experience. I insist on learning everything the hard way.
Life lesson: Learning things the hard way SUCKS. If someone gives you advice and they've been through it... you should probably listen. That whole "that will never happen to me" attitude is stupid. You keep doing the same idiotic, potentially dangerous, illegal thing, long enough, you will get caught. You will get hurt. This is not an IF scenario. It's just a matter of WHEN. Law of probabilities. It might take longer than you expect, but it will happen. So just save yourself the heartache and don't be so fucking stubborn.
I've been told by more people than I can count of the extremeness of my stubbornness... It was most definitely my downfall in most regards.
I would say a good 75% of the people I went to high school with have either; been married and/or divorced, have children, have finished their college and have started their careers. Me? What do I do? Oh, that's right. I work at Staples making minimum wage. And I live with my dad. Oh and lest we forget, the state of IL owns my ass for the next two years. I have no prospects of any kind of realistic relationship at all anywhere in the near future. I seem to have a tendency to scare away love interests or sabotage myself by running as fast as I can in the opposite direction...
Don't get me wrong, I love myself. I know I'm awesome, I don't need anyone else to justify me.
still...
sucks.
(this is where the teddy bear comes in...)
(this is where the teddy bear comes in...)
Everyone tells me their life stories; their hurts, concerns, worries, happy's and sad's... and that's totally okay with me. I'm a good listener, I like being there for the people I care about. I can tell you what's wrong with you, but I have terrible insight about myself. And when you ask me what's wrong with me instead of telling you I just make a really bad joke at a super awkward moment... I am the king of that.
I have wonderful, amazing people in my life. I love my friends, and I know they love me back. I'm constantly surprised at how many people truly care about me and the fact that I truly care about them... Sometimes I lose perspective and my bullshit keeps me from seeing them. But then the sun comes out and I see who is really there... and man. That is so fucking amazing.
Real friends are nice.
Get yourself some.
Real friends are nice.
Get yourself some.
this evening's soundtrack: deftones; around the fur.
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