The best things are worth the wait... If it's easy, it probably isn't what you need anyway. People are constantly surprising me, which, though flabbergasting at times, is what makes life interesting. You think you know someone and three days later they've done a 360 and are treating you completely different. Since I don't believe people change, but their circumstances do, this leaves me to wonder how they really felt to begin with... It's amazing how fast a person can go from loving to hating you, it can happen in a moment. But I'm used to people hating me... It's always my fault so... its never really that shocking. The question is, if you can snap so quickly from one to the other, did they ever actually love you to begin with?
Hm...
think about it.
When you say you love someone, mean it; that half ass shit is for the birds. And keep in mind there are different kinds of love... Just because someone loves you one way and not the other doesn't mean they love you any less... Having that shit thrown back in your face fucking blows, so don't make promises you aren't sure you can keep.
"I'll love you forever." ...forever is a long fucking time.
"I'll love you no matter what." ....no matter what tends to be open to interpretation.
"I would never do that to you because I love you too much." ...never is an awfully strong word.
I'm not sure where this little tirade came from, I just started typing and this is what my brain produced... I'm fully aware that I'm terrible at relationships. I don't know if my parent's bad track records doomed me from the beginning, or because I have some sort of weird daddy issues, or my trust issues don't allow me to connect with people on important levels, or if it's just an uncontrollable fear of commitment. Probably all of them on some level lol.
I am really good at faking it though...
Ever had one of those moments where something totally unexpected happens but it's exactly what you'd been looking for, even though you didn't know it? This is one of those nice surprises. You spend the next week with those happy little butterflies and that stupid, creeper grin breaks out on your face every time you think about it...
Go big or go home, yeah? What happens when you get old and are sitting around in your rocking chair on the front porch saying, "I wish I'd done this..."
HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY!
have you thanked a Vet today?
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