fireworks.

When did I become a grown up? I remember turning 18 and thinking I knew everything. Nobody could tell me anything without me thinking I knew better. I was an adult, damnit. I could buy cigarettes and porn and legally get married or join the military... obviously I was right and they were wrong. Then there was 21... I could buy booze, I lived on my own, and I just KNEW I was right by that point, because I had already been "right" for the past 3 years.

BAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

With age comes wisdom, which makes me feel old when I say that...but it's true. When you're between 18 and 21 you think you know everything because you're legally an adult... you have that "adult"-ness without the experience to back up any of the decisions you're making. When I was that age I would have never asked my parents opinion or thought twice about the choices I made. Now I ask my parents opinion on everything and take two weeks to make important decisions. There's always that... "If I had just listened..." scenario... but the past is the past, you can't change it. It is what it is. All you can do is learn from it. I apparently like to learn things the hard way... But I think that makes me a stronger person. I guess that's how people see me because I get told how strong I am all the time. Personally, I think they may be full of shit. But then other times I remember how fucking awesome I am and... well. You just can't take that way once you've got it. It's not my fault I'm awesome, I was born this way. I might have lost the spark there for awhile, but it was still there. And the thing is, everybody is awesome in their own way. If you don't see yourself that way, no one else will either. You can't love anyone else if you don't love yourself....  

do you know that there's still a chance for you, 'cuz there's a spark in you?





courtesy;katy.pery