i should be asleep instead of writing this.

long ago and oh so far away.

Do you ever have "WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING?!" moments? Of course you do. Everyone does. Some WTF's are less serious than others. For example, totally word vomiting all over your crush because he/she makes you nervous and you can't make your mouth stop moving. (what the fuck was I thinking? why did I say that?) Or perhaps you made out with the ugly chick from the bar. (dude, what. the fuck.) There are, of course, the more serious circumstances. Like... getting caught driving with weed in your pocket. (Why the fuck didn't I just crotch that shit? What was I thinking??) These moments are occasionally funny, but usually frustrating. 

I was just going through my computer and cleaning out a bunch of shit I don't need anymore. Old pictures, duplicate stuff, homework assignments from years ago. Y'know, just occupying myself till my brain is tired enough to sleep. And... I found... woah. Man. I was so fucked up. Like seriously. Some of these pictures... and there were videos... what the fuck!? I went from 10 to 0 in about .5 seconds. I mean, it's kinda funny actually. Like if you found this shit on youtube or some random website you'd get a laugh at the silly fucked up girl. And I'm pretty good at laughing at myself. We all know I do stupid shit all the time.

But.
Still.
Ew.

Followed by a LOL because quite frankly... it's funny. In a sad kinda way.

I'm all tired and caffeine-crashy the time for sleep is now so I should probably not be writing. I get all weird when I'm sleepy.
 
But to be honest, which I usually am to the point where I over share... shit still gets to me every once in awhile at random moments. Usually around the 20th of the month. Especially around landmark goals. It's so weird. I'll be in a fan-fucking-tastic mood on the 20th. Then that night or the next day it's like... sugar crash. Reality check crash. Every time I congratulate myself I'm reminded of where I came from. And MAN. Man.

Just.
fucking.

Shit.

For fucks sake.


Shut up Aly.
go to bed.

Insightful thought you should take away from this: 

Don't be a fucktard.

OR

If you are, don't take pictures/videos of it and save it to your computer.

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TUNE IN NEXT TIME TO HEAR ALY SAY....

"The weird thing about vaginas is..."

courtesy; Deathcab.